Anime Crossover: About How I Spoiled an Angel

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Final Volume -

You are both a blessing and a curse (The End)

Hi, hi.

I am the author of this book [loading], without a doubt!

When you see this sentence, it means that the book has truly ended.

Oh dear, some readers might be wondering, "Author, author, where's my Yukino?"

Your grandma just ran away without writing anything, huh?

Um—let me explain…

Actually, the ending of this book was already decided last October.

Yes, you heard right, last October.

That was exactly the month when I was earning 3 RMB a day from writing, and I no longer had the energy to keep going. Of course, I came back later for some reasons.

Let's just mention the ending from back then as a bonus:

Su Qing did not return to the mainland, but to the past, where she was saved by the young Yui, stayed at her house, and was gradually moved by her. In the end, she found the young Mahiru and saved the little girl's tragic childhood.

Later, the three of them went to school together and met Yukino...

The rest of the story is simple.

The three girls gradually fell in love with the boy during their time together, and decided to confess their feelings to him together on his eighteenth birthday.

But eighteen was also the day Su Qing left this timeline.

The final story is that the timelines merge, and all four of them are happily together.

Huh? This story sounds pretty good!

But obviously, I have completely abandoned this ending.

Going back in time and changing all the regrets would be a wonderful thing.

It feels just like going back to elementary school and becoming a top student again when I was at the peak of my intelligence in my senior year of high school!

But it's not actually that great, because even if you go back to elementary school and study for another six years, you might not get into Tsinghua or Peking University.

Otherwise, wouldn't those people who repeated their studies for several years have already gone to Oxford and Cambridge?

So I actually hate being reborn, even though being reborn is so awesome, so awesome that I could get rich by buying lottery tickets, buying World Cup tickets, buying Bitcoin.

Yes, everyone.

One day, young Mahiru suddenly stood in front of me, holding a very cute teddy bear. She didn't say a word, just stood there silently shedding tears.

I suddenly realized:

Changing the past can't make up for regrets; it only negates the countless days and nights of pain and confusion you spent in the past.

In this book, I will not teach what love is, what liking is, nor will I write about what real things are.

Of the 106 million words, I think I only wrote four words: encounter and choice.

So there came the cicadas, the crazy cats and dogs, the transoceanic phone calls, their hearts, the road ahead, in your place, and... welcome back.

So actually, there's not much point in me writing Yukino's story anymore.

I've already hidden her answer and choice in "The World is Magnificent and Splendid," so that's enough.

Readers who have made it this far should be able to tell that I am actually someone who pays great attention to the soul of a character.

In fact, from the very beginning, my expectation was that "it would be even better if I could capture 1/10 of the heroine's soul."

That's what I was thinking, but unfortunately I was never able to write the character Yukino exactly as I had envisioned.

Because I initially intended to make a little money from this book, and since Yukino is a frequent character in crossover anime, there are very few readers without her, so I probably wouldn't have been able to finish writing it.

So actually, Yukino isn't a three-dimensional character in my mind.

I would like to apologize to all Yukino fans, especially to [Yukinoshita Nyanno] who often urges me to update in my QQ group.

Let me talk about something that's not exactly off-topic.

I've never written a novel before, let alone been involved in fan fiction.

So I never imagined that fan fiction writers would one day be so cruelly betrayed by the original authors.

In the latest volume of the original manga, Shiina Mahiru's half-brother, "Kei," inexplicably appears.

Age between upper elementary school and junior high school.

When I saw it, I was speechless.

The story roughly involves Kei coming to find Mahiru, and Fujimiya Shu is also there.

The other party insisted on talking to Mahiru about Shiina Saya, but there was nothing else.

Do you know what makes me most angry?

First, Fujimiya Shu's unfounded gentleness disgusted me.

In the original work, it is mentioned that Fujimiya Shusuke thought that if he went to a family restaurant to do this kind of thing, on the one hand, other people would hear it, and on the other hand, he didn't know how late the discussion would go, and it would be bad if the police saw it (because the younger brother was too young).

Since the Mahiru family couldn't be visited, the Fujimiya family was the one they ended up going to.

Okay, then I'd like to ask the author.

Does this mean that Mahiru and Fujimiya Shu are adults and therefore have the capacity to independently bear criminal responsibility?

Aren't they high school freshmen?

Because they were afraid of the police and afraid of being overheard, they chose to go to Fujimiya Shu's house.

Damn it, isn't the Mahiru family right next to the Fujimiya family?

Regardless, the other person was a boy, so how could you let him go?

If you decide to stay overnight, and the other party insists on staying at Mahiru's house instead of Fujimiya Shuu's, then...

How to do?

It's simple, just kick him out and send him to the police station.

Okay, so in this situation, why aren't you afraid of the police?

From the very beginning, my opinion of the character Fujimiya Shu was merely passing grade, just passing.

His current cowardly, almost disgusting gentleness makes me want to vomit.

I had intended to write about what Su Qing would do in the last chapter, but my fingertips hovered over the keyboard, and I ultimately didn't write anything.

Because that would only tarnish my final chapter.

But what angers me is never Fujimiya Shuu.

Rather, it was the original author who personally killed off Shiina Mahiru's soul.

Yes, you're the original author, you're so awesome.

Even if I boast that my Mahiru is unique, we fanfiction writers, no matter how similar the flowers are, are still two distinct flowers.

But no matter what, it cannot be denied that my Mahiru is based on the original character by Kito. I used someone else's name and personality, but I just wrote the Shiina Mahiru in my heart.

You are the author who created this character.

If that's the case, why write the female protagonist, who is both gentle and sharp-tongued, resilient and vulnerable, independent and dependent, into someone else who is only vulnerable and dependent?

Why is it that from volume 5 onwards, all I see is that once vibrant young girl gradually withering and decaying?

Shiina Mahiru has been named the best light novel heroine for three consecutive years.

You're the original author, you must feel really awesome right now, right?

Yes, it's really awesome.

No matter how amazing you are, you are still a writer, a creator.

The greatest tragedy for a creator is to destroy the soul of their own character, whether protagonist or supporting role.

I've been holding this in since the beginning of this year, and there have been many times when I really wanted to explode at the original author.

I used to really look forward to season 2 of My Neighborhood Angels because even though the first season, P9, was terrible, I could still watch it and was still moved by it.

But now I have no expectations at all, and even feel nauseous and disgusted.

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Back to topic.

I remember very clearly that the first word of this book was written on the evening of June 6.28, 2024, in a hospital.

At that time, I searched through Tomato magazine but couldn't find the book by Shiina Mahiru that I wanted to read. So, while looking at my father's electrocardiogram, I wrote from 10 p.m. to nearly 6 a.m.

That was the first 1.3 words of the book.

Although I encountered many things along the way, and often wanted to give up.

But finally, on June 24, 2025—a year later—I wrote 106 million words, bringing this book to a not-so-perfect, but still a perfect, ending.

Frankly, this book did terribly.

It should have been cut long ago.

Fortunately, I'm a fool; I don't care about the return date or the future, and I stumble along while diligently finishing the book.

I used to care a lot about ratings. This book's final score was 8.0, but it actually dropped several times, fluctuating back and forth, which really messed up my mentality.

But now that I've written this far, I've come to terms with many things.

Even if the rating is high, it doesn't really mean much.

A reader left a comment saying, "Keep it up! Based on my years of reading experience, this book is sure to be a hit!"

Thank you very much for this reader's comment.

Unfortunately, this is something that cannot be done.

The recommended high-traffic areas are exhausted after 10 or 20 words, and all subsequent actions are almost entirely a struggle.

Especially without a high rating, an 8.0 rating will gradually fade into obscurity.

But what does it matter?

Even though I was actually very unwilling.

Even after writing 8 to 90 words, I was still envious of my peers, envious of those who achieved better results than me, and envious of those who achieved better results than me but still stopped writing.

Why.

I think I can do it too...

The idea that one is willing to accept defeat is a lie. I am really unwilling to accept it, even if I don't make any money.

I want more and more people to read my books in the future.

I want all readers who enjoy reading Mahiru, Yui, and Yukino to see this book.

I want to use the words from the book, I want to say proudly and arrogantly:

"Damn it, did you see that?"

"This is Yukino in my heart."

"This is the Yui I know."

"This is the true daylight I've always loved!"

No, I can't do it, I really can't.

So I'm not reconciled, I'm so reconciled I want to die!

When I was writing "Cats and Dogs," I was probably already insane along with Su Qing.

Why wasn't it written well in the first place?

Why not just start a new book? Maybe it would be more successful.